It does not matter what kind of picture you want to create with me. Just promise me that it would be something that we can both smile and laugh about regardless of the flaws.
In times when I can not be there for you, I want to give you something that would provide comfort and security because I do not want you to feel alone even when I am not here.
How else can this go on, when the only thing that I truly asked for and my only expectation was something you were not able to give? There is nothing sincere about what we had. Everything just became a total mind-fuck.
You turn this frown into a smile no matter how difficult it is to move the muscles around my lips. Being with you is a reason for me to declare the world that today, I am going to be fine.
To see you again without knowing that I never left your mind, my own feelings for you came back. I should have taken the risk that I failed to take several years ago so neither of us would be suffering the consequences of my decisions.
Our journey is a lie. I can not seem to point why I believe that you are deceiving me and how everything you say pierces my chest. I want the truth now because I can not seem to find the courage to tell you anything.
I understand that things had been heavy on your part, so I wont say anymore of my own worries. So, not today. I want to distance myself from you for awhile.