Saturday, October 31, 2009

Our boundary

This is the distance we have. I see you but I know that my arms are not long enough to get a hold of you. Maybe I am meant to just look at you without getting any kind of feeling in return.

Friday, October 30, 2009

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As the world view me differently -- maybe innocent, pure, cold, weird.. I can hear your thoughts because you know that I am much more than what they say.

I want you to define me.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

"Yellow and Green"

While you were away, I tried making things beautiful. I want you to come back soon and see that all this happened because I was (and still am) thinking of you.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Natural Observation

The way we view 'us' is beyond how they see us. You are the only one who cares about what they think. Let them think what they want. I can see through your mistakes and remember this..
You are the only one that I adore.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

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The night gave me temporary dreams just like how being alive with you is also temporary.

Monday, October 26, 2009

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Despite our differences, I am certain that we can still harmonize. Though that is if you are willing to make that song with me.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

A Kind of Tunnel

Most tunnels are supposed to be dark. You have to find a light at the end to help find your way out. But you have it easy right in front of you and I wonder why the hell you are not walking to reach the other side.

The good opportunities are over there, not here.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Brown veins on a green leaf

I only focused on the big picture only to realize that it was all about the little things that you had done for me. They were small deeds that showed that you cared and you tried. It was me who needed to look at a closer picture because it had a significant meaning. You gave meaning to it and I failed to see that. I'm sorry.

Friday, October 23, 2009


You saw what was left before you tore off what kept me on air. It was that 'something' that I thought was painless and weightless but it is now pinning me down, deep in my heart. Why are you constantly messing with me?

Thursday, October 22, 2009

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Even though it does not feel like it right now, I know that I will be OK without you. I can finally see the other beautiful things out there and you are not included.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Glass Door

You never learned how to see through me even though you know that I am standing right in front of you.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

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I wonder how someone like you have caused all this.

Monday, October 19, 2009


I know that you want to please me and everyone else. But there is no such thing. You should please the person who matters to you the most, the person that you made a promise to.

You are the person that matters most to me because I made all these promises to you. I don't want to see you struggle so I allowed you to please them instead.

I just made things easier for you and that should satisfy me but I am once again unhappy.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Just A Shoe Rack

It is similar to how I place something on a rack or shelf even if it does not belong there. But I do anyway for easier access.

I go to a place that I wont normally go to just to see you there.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

A Gardener's Purpose

You can stop, but I will still continue to clear a way for you so that you wont graze yourself on anything sharp that you will come across along the way.

Friday, October 16, 2009

(RIP Byrd)

I have not met you properly before but you were someone special to a person I care about. I wish I was able to get to know you more in this lifetime.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


Even in the most immature fights, I want you to know that you are still the one that I want. I had always been so afraid that something would just take you away and never feel how you are important in my life.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009


You may have pulled me away from my usual spot countless times but I still refuse to have you break this heart.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

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You get things. You get tired of these things. You find new things that has the similar characteristics from your old things. So you start liking these new things and the whole process resets.

Don't make me go through that process and become the thing you get tired of.

Monday, October 12, 2009

'They can't just be pink, can they?'

You can dress the same, act the same, like the same things as them.. In my eyes you are still more than what you appear to be because I know that wasn't the real you.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

The stories you tell

.. made me realize that you only mentioned one man in your life.

You chose not to settle for the second best. I should live up to that example.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

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It feels like I had always been stuck in the same place, same time because all I did was wait.

Are you sorry for neglecting me? I am still not tired of denying it, so please continue with what you are doing with your life.

Friday, October 9, 2009

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It is not right if I try and play it off all the time. It is not going to get you to understand me.

What sounds good to me will not always sound good to you. I understand, really I do. The problem is that it is always that way all the time.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

"What's Over There?"

I want you to ask me this:

"What do you like about me?"

And I will finally tell you that it is the way you see things.. because we all see the same things differently.

You just make the simple things more special in my eyes.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

"Hey Guys"

Even though there are days when I want to relax and you come out of nowhere and do something completely disturbing that goes against my mood, I decided not to do anything about it.

Because you put up with me just the same.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

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I chose to walk a short path and made it seem like forever. Without rests, stops, or even a time to catch my breath. I even picked up leaves along the way, crunched them with my fingers and scattered the remains on the floor so I will know my way back. I know, the path is short but it was tricky trying to get out.

Just like what we have.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Unusually Grey Skies

Despite all your promises, you suddenly decided to leave me and take everything. From what we had to everything else I find important. I feel like I am going to walk in dark alleys, shivering and desperate for warmth because you were once my source for these things.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Wires that connects us

I have had connections with many different humans and I had tried to cross them all but these things are so vulnerable to break once you cross them. But you were the first one who made an effort to make it through me and it made me not want to connect with anybody just like the way you and I do.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Biodagradable Heart

Too many times I came back for you because I thought you needed me as much as I needed you but over time you neglected me and expected me to come back and be of use for you again. My heart is not made of plastic. It is a part of me that you once owned. With all that pressure that you give it, it is bound to get tired.

It is not like any other recyclables that when you reuse, you get the same satisfaction.

Friday, October 2, 2009

The Shit Pile

I know you had the habit of dumping the most useless shit outside and you were so good at it that I seldom felt like I belong in that pile.

I was just wondering if you still need me.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Missed the Bullseye

You focused more on trying to feed me words of love and encouragement by sugar-coating your sentences with "I love you" and "I miss you" without showing seriousness in your eyes.

You keep missing the point. You can not just say it like that.